Monday 28 July 2014

My fascination for mills and boons

The end of class 12 triggered a lot of things for me. It includes a fascination for Mills and Boon. And the books are not just restricted to Mills and Boon publishers. Rather, I've hardly read a few of them. My attention was grabbed  by a multitude of authors including Lisa Kleypas, Julia Quinn, Judith Mcnaught and Sabrina Jeffries. My current speed of going through these books must be a book everyday. The fact that I have found all of them on the internet for free, has only acted as a positive catalyst.

Opinionated, quirky, jovial, free spirited, smart women having hardly any idea about their alluring persona and charms fulfill my own wish to have those deep affections. i can just imagine those green meadows or the harsh sweltering climate as the backdrop for the arguments between the heroine and the hero. The way they meander through through their feelings, trying hard to explain the peculiar, rich sensations in their hearts, whenever they set their eyes on their future spouse, makes me all giggly. How utterly romantic and utterly naive of me to sigh on the same story told again and again in every novel. yet i rush to reach out to read more of them. Today i finally felt a little frustrated with myself for being completed besotted with these novels. I asked myself why i like them so much? what makes me want to read them again and again. It certainly isn't the quality of literature because i could see people ranging from high-school dropouts to Harvard graduates writing about the same thing- handsome man, innocent beautiful woman and romance. The fact that ladies of all backgrounds seemed to love such romances, puzzled me too. Why?

So i sat down on the computer. And don't think it was an easy job to do. While I was separating actual scientific articles from plain dumb ones, I also had to constantly fight the feeling about the weird way my family was looking at the number of tabs on the pc about love and romance. well i should've thought about that right when i started reading those instead of worrying my head silly with what everybody else thinks.

Anne Browning Walker wrote for Huffington post talking about why intelligent women like to read romances (it sure made me feel real smug to think that i fall into that category too). Today's romances talk about how the relationship helps in the personal growth in both the main characters. Men and women participate in their love with mutual consent. We intelligent females (i am again beaming at the adjective used) fulfill our dream stories through them.

So my fellow intelligent ladies (again the beautiful adjective), let those who make us feel embarrassed about reading romances, get lost. I refuse to feel wrong and frivolous because i am not. I will keep reminding myself that. I am intelligent. ( this word is going to be the blissful end of me)

Friday 11 July 2014

Acne and Tension

Up until class 12, I believed I had a dry skin. The advantage of this was that in the blazing heat and humidity, I never had any pimples or anything. My skin was unblemished.Or so I thought..... but the Karmic cycle was turning and it brought a series of big painful acne with it.

I've never been the calm sort of person. Yes I am careless and i tend to be aloof to other's annoyance but when I have to worry about something......Oh Boy!......I will think of all the difficulties and obstacles in my path and make a big deal out of it. And class 12 was full of triggers for such bouts of worrying. The need to perform well in the boards and then the need to clear the competitive exams were relentlessly after me. And along the way, antibiotics were my true companion. .......Don't laugh. It isn't funny.

My mom's a doctor and she tells me that my acne are because of tension. You probably would have guessed so after having read the first two paragraphs. But I don't have any exams now!!!i am just waiting for the counseling for different engineering colleges and medical colleges to start. yeah it is stressful, not knowing what is going to happen in your future and whether or not you've screwed with you life by not studying the right way or not studying at all. To clarify before you start judging me, I did study well... in 12th, not in 11th. but that shouldn't mean anything. To start with, i know that I will get into somewhere, and it is not going to be a dump at all. And the second thing is that i watch movies all day! BUT THESE ACNE JUST DON'T GO AWAY! As soon as i get rid of one, another one, only bigger, erupts with a vengeance on some other part of my face.

yours very own
Female Complicated